By Paulo Coelho

Many years ago, there lived a man who was capable of loving and forgiving everyone he came across. Because of this, God sent an angel to talk to him.

‘God asked me to come and visit you and tell you that he wishes to reward you for your goodness,’ said the angel. ‘You may have any gift you wish for. Would you like the gift of healing?’

‘Certainly not,’ said the man. ‘I would prefer God to choose those who should be healed.’

‘And what about leading sinners back to the path of Truth?’

‘That’s a job for angels like you. I don’t want to be venerated by anyone or to serve as a permanent example.’

‘Look, I can’t go back to Heaven without having given you a miracle. If you don’t choose, I’ll have to choose one for you.’

The man thought for a moment and then said:

‘All right, I would like good to be done through me, but without anyone noticing, not even me, in case I should commit the sin of vanity.’

So the angel arranged for the man’s shadow to have the power of healing, but only when the sun was shining on the man’s face. In this way, wherever he went, the sick were healed, the earth grew fertile again, and sad people rediscovered happiness.

The man traveled the Earth for many years, oblivious of the miracles he was working because when he was facing the sun, his shadow was always behind him. In this way, he was able to live and die unaware of his own holiness.

PS : paulo coelho definitely is my role model of life. he never fail to amaze me with his superiority. he's been through so many things, good and bad, and all those experiences resulted to the way he is, now. x))

taken from : http://paulocoelhoblog.com

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if i had to make a confession now, i don't know if 1 day would be enough.

i have too much to confess. about me, my life, pals, real buds/ fake ones, family, jonas brothers, fan facts, and so on. i don't think you'd like to hear my confession too. that's why i decided to conclude my confession in one brief and clear sentence. 

I AM A SINNER. 

i ain't a saint, i can be a hypocrite, can be a slut, can be a friend, can be a sister, can be an evil. i am everything you expect me to be. 

but do that make me a worse person than you, than anyone else in the whole world? i don't think so. everyone is making the same mistake like I do. it's the name and the self differ our sins. 

when you're reading this post, just remember one thing. i have the passion to be famous sometimes, i don't deny that. all of us have this one little part. some people just don't want to admit it. but popularity, or even money, is not what my whole life is about. there are more. much more. 

I'm unintentionally declaring a war to someone. i shall not name her. but you know it's a she. i've never wanted to make a rival, or even an enemy. but sometimes, this thing is just inevitable. in a war, losing and winning are the only option. and in my war, winning is my only option. brain vs. brain. it's our dedication that will eventually decide the winner. 

judge me, if that's the only thing you can do. but i have one philosophy in mind : judge yourself, before you judge others. may you, who never do a single sin, be the first one to throw the pebble. 

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hari ini ada kejadian menarik yang menggelitik dan membuat saya berpikir.
dimulai dari kakak saya, yang sangat bersemangat untuk menonton film yang memang sedang sangat in akhir-akhir ini, 2012.
sebenarnya saya menganggap hal ini biasa-biasa saja, sampai ia berkata bahwa ia harus cepat-cepat menontonnya sebelum minggu ini berakhir.
alasannya menarik, karena ada rumor yang mengatakan bahwa minggu depan film box office ini akan ditarik dari bioskop-bioskop di Indonesia oleh MUI.

wow, saya berpikir. gila sekali MUI bila memang menggunakan haknya untuk melakukan hal yang, menurut saya, sangat konyol dan tidak perlu.
Apa gunanya menarik sebuah film yang notabene sedang sangat digandrungi masyarakat dari peredaran? apa karena tema yang diangkat, yaitu tentang kiamat pada tahun 2012?
benak saya konstan langsung tertuju pada 2 hal.

yang pertama, saya berpikir ada kemungkinan rumor ini disebarkan oleh perusahaan sinema sendiri, yang berusaha tetap mempertahankan animo masyarakat untuk menonton film ini.
tak dapat dipungkiri bahwa film ini sangat laris, bahkan salah satu bioskop di Jakarta sampai khusus membuka 7 studio untuk menayangkan 2012.
antrean untuk membeli tiketnya pun sangat panjang, dan banyak orang rela, demi melihat imajinasi dari Hollywood tentang kiamat.
namun, akhir-akhir ini berkembang opini tentang 2012 yang tidak terlalu positif di kalangan masyarakat. mereka menganggap bahwa film ini tidak sehebat yang digembar-gemborkan orang.
satu-satunya hal yang menjadi kelebihan film ini adalah special effectnya yang sangat canggih, tidak perlu diragukan lagi. tetapi dari sudut cerita, film ini tidak terlalu menyentuh dan berarti bahkan terkesan dangkal.

yang kedua, saya bertanya dalam hati, bila rumor ini ternyata benar, apa yang ada dalam benak petinggi MUI sehingga ingin melarang peredaran 2012?
mungkin mereka menganggap bahwa 2012 dapat meracuni pikiran masyarakat, menciptakan suatu perasaan paranoid di benak masyarakat, sehingga benar-benar mengira bahwa kiamat akan datang tahun 2012, itu berarti hanya 3 tahun lagi dari sekarang.
lalu apa implikasinya bila MUI benar-benar bertindak demikian? saya menganggap bahwa bila mereka berniat melarang 2012 untuk tayang, maka MUI juga harus menarik buku-buku yang berbicara tentang kiamat tahun 2012 dari peredaran.
selain itu, sudah hampir pasti, jika hal ini benar dilakukan, akan memancik reaksi yang sangat beragam dari semua kalangan. dari yang mendukung, sampai yang menolak atau bahkan menghujat habis-habisan.

entah mana dari 2 hal itu yang benar, bagi saya tidak ada yang begitu penting.
yang paling penting adalah bagaimana menumbuhkan pola pikir masyarakat yang dewasa dan logis, sehingga tidak mudah termakan oleh isu-isu yang merugikan diri kita sendiri.
kiamat menjadi salah satu hal yang paling sering diramalkan di dunia. dari sekian banyak ramalan, hingga saat ini belum ada yang terbukti kebenarannya. ya terang saja, kalau terbukti, saya tidak ada lagi dan tidak mungkin bisa menulis seperti sekarang.
daripada memikirkan tentang akhir zaman yang abstrak dan ambigu, bukankah lebih baik bila menggunakan pikiran kita untuk melakukan hal-hal yang lebih urgent. seperti misalnya memperbaiki kualitas lingkungan hidup.
isu kiamat bukan hal yang dapat dibuktikan kebenarannya, tetapi hal-hal seperti global warming ataupun terorisme adalah nyata, bukan isapan jempol belaka.
akan lebih bijaksana, apabila kita mulai memprioritaskan diri dan pikiran serta tindakan kita untuk sesuatu yang real dan butuh penyelesaian segera.
soal kiamat atau tidak, kembalikanlah itu pada Sang Pencipta. bila memang sudah saatnya, masa itu akan tiba juga. bukan kewenangan manusia untuk menentukan kapan akhir zaman itu datang.
lagipula, masing masing dari kita tentu punya iman dan persepsi masing-masing tentang kiamat. tinggal bagaimana kita yakin bahwa persepsi kita itu benar dan dapat menuntun kita pada kebaikan.

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i started the week with a grumpy face. with a little hope that i could end it with a happy smile.

each and every week, i keep questioning myself the same question as always. what am I doing here? i think i don't belong here. maybe there was a place somewhere out there that's meant for me. so, what am I going to do now? 

and those silly questions... i just can't get it out of my mind. even until now, to be honest. but at least i feel a whole lot better ... ^^

1st happy feeling : i had a lot of fun doing the jonas quiz held by jobrosindonesia. i was afraid at first, noone would join, because it's usually not me, who do the quiz. but i was totally wrong. they still excited to join the quiz till the end! XDD

2nd happy feeling : one of my lecturers actually commented on my note (which was happened to be my assignment given by her), and said that it's good. omg! she praised me! aaaaahhhh... that means i'm not a total moron on this field.. X3 - i think i'll post my note on the next post. it's in indonesian though.. x))

the most important thing : i know now that i still have that slight hope. i still can survive in communication science.. though there will be many difficulties waiting ahead of me.. maybe i actually wasn't lost after all. maybe this is the place for me.. no matter which one it is, now i have the power to face tomorrows. SMILE and CHEER! x))

xx peace love JONAS xx 

 

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strong words i used there as the title of this post.

there's no doubt that soon enough we'll have to pay for what we've done to this planet.

(so not being put in my wish-list)

anyway, got some serious events during the week.. 

1st event : a kind of awkward 'committee club' had me stressed out perfectly! thanks GOWD it's over!

2nd event : the totally uncool TOEFL test i somehow did. AGAIN. as a part of my trials to grasp the hearts of all those F**Kin' pals. (complete joke, mates! no offense. glad to help ya out.)

3rd event : the sudden appearance of we-know-who (him-who-should-not-be-named). of course, startled at first. trying to calm down then, but failed, gracefully. okay. he screws me, for the xxx times. gaawwddd!!! i miss him a bit too much, huh?

4th event : the unexpected rival, came from an unexpected spot. new website for Jb indonesia is on its way. well, i know everyone knows that it's ME who made THE FIRST WEBSITE for JB fans in Indonesia (although with a free hosting). - well,  that's exactly where the problem appeared. free hosting VS own domain, competing of the title the OFFICIAL JONAS BROTHERS INDONESIA website. guess who turns out to be the winner. hell depressing!!!

5th event : my swaying mood. (gah, like this never happen before), but seriously, this time, i feel so dang LOW. it seems like my eyes have just been opened widely, now i can see the true faces of my new pals. they're way too special, in their own, special way. too talented as well. HOLY CRAP! while all i'm doing is copying and pasting, they do "it's originally made by me" thingy. 

lessons of the day : never be satisfied by what you've got. the sky is the only limit. means you still have a long way to go. never let go things you dear so much. without your realization, they're slipping through your fingers all the time..

 

(it's tickling me how hard i've tried to use fancy words, but ended up using some trashy slangs. lols. XP)

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as the wise always said, 'love will come when its time."

but i don't know if it's worth waiting.
i mean, love is everywhere. except for a LOVER.
he's definitely not for everyone.
(or not for me?)

i find it hard, nearly all the time, to seriously fall for someone.
but to fall for someone unreachable? that's kinda my specialty. lol. XP

anyway, the point is, i wonder if a lover is really matter.

of course there were times when i wished i had a guy who was deeply in love with me,
and would take me everywhere.
but they quickly faded away. the next day, i never wish for one again.

despite all of these feelings, there's still a room left inside of me for love, and a lover.
about the matter of coming or not, seriously, that's out of my control, and doesn't bug me even just a bit.

sometimes, not having a boyfriend is a curse, but on the other side, it's a guilty pleasure. no joke.
^^

Labels: breakdown, everyday story

what's life? and what do you do with it?

somehow the mistery of life just getting bigger in my head.. i try to survive each and every single day, but well, as i try harder, life just gets even harder. 

so i'm racing with time, racing with the speed of changes. everytime i slow down, time don't slow down with me. that's why i need to speed up, if i want to slow down a bit.

there are times i want to scream, and hope that time would stop. waiting for me, even just for a blink of an eye.

but i can't just stand here and do nothing. i think it's time for me to fly, to soar, and to spread my wings.

time for me to open up my heart, lay down my worries. 

and i will fly away.

it's time for me to fly.

(it's a part of Jonas Brothers' songs, Time for me to fly)

Labels: breakdown, everyday story, jonas brothers